fohk:

“A real loser is someone who’s so afraid of not winning he doesn’t even try”
Little Miss Sunshine (2006)Jonathan Dayton, Valerie Faris

fohk:

A real loser is someone who’s so afraid of not winning he doesn’t even try”

Little Miss Sunshine (2006)
Jonathan Dayton, Valerie Faris

(via mistake-making-menace)

I want to talk about something

As much as I consider myself to be more leaning towards the spiritual side rather than tied to a specific religion, it is entirely my decision to wear the headscarf anyway. There are many many reasons that I can give but to be really honest, they’re all just my attempt at making people ‘less’ confused and it’s exhausting. 

It’s also exhausting and really saddening to me that if people are not questioning my reasons for wearing a headscarf, they are telling me to ‘show the world my beauty’ and to ‘be myself’. I am TRYING to be myself, but apparently I am an incomplete person if my hair is freaking covered, where is the logic in that?

There isn’t something more hurtful than being really excited about a new haircut and showing a friend a picture and having them say ‘oh you should really get rid of that thing you wear, you look stunning without it’. That isn’t a compliment, that makes me feel like shit, 1) because having to hear bullshit like that disguised as compliments my entire life, it gets fucking old and insults how I look 90% of the time and 2) in what fucking world do you think I am wearing a headscarf because I have low self esteem? and even more importantly, that ‘thing’ (and its been called that on many occasions) is something I consciously put on every morning, that alone should tell you that it is more than a ‘thing’. Maybe it doesn’t represent to me a strong bond with a higher being, but it’s still my headscarf, that I put on my head, because I want to.

I am just so tired of always having to explain everything, and defend and stand up for myself over and over again about something that really should not be such a big thing. The following things need to just stop fucking happening:

  1. Being told that if I don’t believe in A then I can’t do B
  2. Being pitied because if only I knew that I am just so clearly brainwashed aw poor me
  3. Being told that because I am wearing A I need to act in terms of B C and D
  4. People turning into fucking psychics and talking to me about my obviously one destined route in life and hardly listening to what I am actually doing and planning to do in the future.
  5. Being bluntly insulted because wearing a fucking headscarf means I have somehow misplaced my heart. (No I don’t need to know that you think my face just doesn’t ‘look right’ or ‘it just looks SO much better without it’ or ‘girls like me’ are just not your ‘type’ ENOUGH.)

I am so much more hurt than angry, and I really just want to emphasise that I don’t fucking go by a single day without my headscarf being dragged into conversations that would have been perfectly fine without that happening. I am either treated as the Ambassador of what is great and holy and used as examples to shit I have no experience with or I’m treated as a child that needs a bit of a helping hand to do the ‘right thing’ and to look the ‘right way’.

Both are fucking trampling over my own self-worth. ENOUGH. 

Rant Headscarf